Really Horrible and Really Great Weekend

Horrible: Game time was moved to 3 and I was at work and didn't even know about the fucking time change until an hour before game time. So mom and dad took the tickets and I'm pissed about giving my tickets to them because blowing $80 is a lot for me and they bought me a $1.36 soda in return. Also, the road to UPS was under construction and we couldn't get there without getting lost twice and doing a few figure 8's. Also, dad told me he was going to put up my fan for me today. I got home from the wedding reception at 6 and it wasn't started so I got mad and started opening it and was going to do it myself and dad got really mad for some reason and I got a hand across the face and a bruise on my arm just because he grabbed it so hard. Ass hole. It brought up bad memories of my childhood with mom. On top of that, I told Stephanie how I feel and she's pissed. I found out she dumped Eric and is now dating Nathan...She was probably single for like five minutes. I can't believe it. And I asked her why she doesn't ever try and work it out with guys. She said, "Excuse me?" And we got into it and I got mad and told her how I feel in a way I normally wouldn't have and I don't feel bad because she needed to hear it. If it means she lost a friend over it, big fuckin deal. She's losing all he people in her life that are important to her over her stupidity and naivete and it's her own fault, and I don't feel sorry for her. Even Alina is rejecting Stephanie. She spends so much time with Stephanie's parents that she doesn't ever want Stephanie, she wants grandma and grandpa. Anyway...bad bad bad all the way around and I don't care because she was the "girlfriend" that every girl's got..the one you love to hang out with but not all that bright and not the person you'd talk to about everything. I have Cat and Leanne for that :) So I'm not losing anything with Stephanie other than a fucking social life. And I feel really lonely again. Then I hear love songs and get all depressed about being single. I have been for three years. Is there something other than a little extra baggage that is not attractive? I know I'm coming off more confident and that is supposedly sexy. I don't get it and people keep trying to hook me up with different guys and I won't even go there. If I start dating someone it's going to be because I'm supposed to, meant to, not because I go looking for it. So...come to mama! :(

Great: Spent an evening with Cat to myself...nice casual night that involved talking, beer, pizza, Vodka, Grey's Anatomy, cruisin around Madison...and the morning was great too after my first full night of sleep in weeks. We had her awesome Potato Bread and bacon and fried eggs...it was scrumptious. :D

So I'm browsing Delavan real estate for the hell of it and most of the houses in my price range are about the same price as a montlyapartment rent would be. My brain is telling me two things. Why would you rent an apartment you'll never own when you can own a house for the same price. Only...it's not the same. Property taxes kill ya! Anyway...my brain is also telling me that yeah home loans are soooo easy to get, but I'm 21! I can't buy a house! More :(

Thanks kitty for the great weekend. Keep pluggin on the baby stuff and the steno stuff and know I'm proud of you and cheering you on...on both accounts. I love you! And thanks for being there. Thanks for being that friend.