OMFG I'M A MUSICIAN!!!

So I'm checkin my email at break tonight and I'm checkin most of the boxes to put them into the Spam thing...I nearly but a good one in with it though! From some lady I don't know...but what made me look twice was that the subject line read "Flute player." Mmmmkay...how would a spam thing know I play flute? And who the hell is this chick? Turns out she is a bride to be (July 7th is the wedding). She asked Maria (my choir director) if she knew any flute players and apparently, Maria referred me in the highest regard and proclaimed me a brilliant musician. I don't know about the musician part let alone the brilliant part...but I'll go with it because it rocks to be called a musician even though I don't do it daily...back to topic. She gave me her email address and phone number, asking me to contact her with what I will charge for it, and that she hopes I am available and that she would love to meet me. I called Maria and had to leave a message and a back-up email of the same message just in case...because before I contact this bride to be lady, I need some suggestions on what the hell I should charge! Is like, $50 too much? I mean...that's taking into consideration that this is not just for the ceremony and stuff...it's for the rehearsal time (I have three weeks to turn into a "brilliant musician") and whatnot, too. It's funny...I have three weeks to prepare with no clue what my music is going to be, and all I can think about is getting to Breber in Elkhorn so I can get a polishing rag because I lost my ancient one from 12 years ago...and if I'm playing for a fuhreaking wedding, it should be a shiney flute. Maybe that will distract the ceremony ppl from the music in case I screw up...they'll be too dazed into the shiney silver?! Meh...lame I know...what can I say. I'm dumb sometimes. Any other suggestions, help?!

I'm a warrior

This is from an awesome episode of One Tree Hill. Quite often they have a really nice string of lines and I'm finally writing it down so that I never forget it. This is from "The Runaway Found" from Brooke to Peyton.

"Hopefully you have a friend that's going to tell you that life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you and it beats you up, but there's a day when you realize you're not just a survivor. You're a warrior. You're tougher than anything it throws your way."

And I am. I so am. That's all...short and snappy blog. They way they should be I guess. Haha.

Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh

The good doc put me on antiobiotics. Here I am, a week later, with hardly any improvement, and NOW he tells me this thing can last up to a month. A MONTH!!!! Fuck. On top of that....I got my monthly visitor yesteday and the cramping DOESN'T help anything. Damn. Tim has been pushin me harder than ever at work, too. I think it's payback for having to take a sick day last Wednesday. I was glad I did, though. My head felt like it was in a vice, there was so much pressure. I don't know what he wants from me. He keeps layin it on hard about how he and Pete used to work 4 hours in valves, come straight to shipping to work 12 hours, then work over at hobbs all day on Saturdays and Sundays. Wtf. It's not my fault you're fuckin crazy...I don't live here, I don't LIVE to work, I don't walk, talk, and breathe work...and work is not my life. If you're not happy with what I HAVE been doing, fuck you...it ain' gon change. I have really good work ethics but what you expect from me is fuckin ridiculous. I work overtime up the butt as it is, and it's unfair to EXPECT so much more out of me. It's not mandatory and it's not fair that you give Brandon and I so much to do, and let everyone else just kinda do whatever, work on whatever they want. It's not fair. Doreen has the theory that Tim does this because we are the two people he has hired since he became the Supervisor so he works us harder and expects heaven and earth out of us. Well, I am really sorry, but I am no saint and I do need sleep, and I do need time alone. And when I'm sick, it would be nice of you not to laugh at me because I look like death. It would also make it easier on me, and help me get better faster, if I was so run down by your stupid shit all the time. You can pile it on someone else for a change. Friday he says, "you're workin Saturday, right?" I said "yeah, why wouldn't I? I haven't missed one yet..." "Well I didnt' want you to think you can get away with not workin 'em like Dani." Dani doesn't work Saturday month end EVER. I can see where she stands, that it isn't technically manditory or whatever...but at the same time, I KNOW she's gonna bitch and moan if he ever puts pressure on her to work a Saturday or something and then I'm going to get really fuckin pissed. The rest of us do it...you never have to, so don't fuckin throw a fit if you have to once in a while. She also likes to sit down a lot at work. She sits down on some boxes with her cart in front of her, packing up some of the fragile parts she picked....the rest of us stand up. She's laaaazy. Fuckin lazy. She makes it look like she does SOOOO much work because she'll pick anywhere from 40-80 orders a night...but if you look at those orders, they're one-liners or just a few lines on each order. It pisses me off. If Doreen or I need to take it easy for a night, we can't, because we're left with the five page orders or the two page exports....ugh. And she as an opinion about EVERYTHING and she'll tell you about it. Most of the time I don't agree with what she says, especially when she has an opinion about something I've told her and Doreen....whatever. I didn't ask you. Sit on your little boxes, takin your time, and I'll stand here and mind my own business workin my ass off. I LOVE the days she takes a half day last minute, or has off. It means it's just Doreen and me for the night. Yay! Dani is a riot, she's really funny and she's pretty cool, but I get so freakin irritated with her. Oh...and every day at break, she uses the internet to look up baby toys and she'll talk about em and this and that....USE YOUR OWN FUCKING TIME! We all gather around the computer, but NO...she is always the first one to it and she ALWAYS looks at baby toys. I could care less right now because it's all she does. Makes me wonder how much time she spends at home looking at them. And then she says, oh he doesn't have very many toys. HA! Whatever. I'm done being a bitch for now....I think I'll have a nap.